In My Time

I kept the faith, but one has to know when to stop. God has created ways that made me unchain myself from a burden that could cripple me for a lifetime.

Life is too precious to be spent on lies and betrayals.

No one is perfect, that’s a given. But I believe that as long as you value respect and fairness, everything else follows. We walk along the paths of our destiny as human beings with feelings, not as tin cans that roam without sensitivity.

To those who are shedding the light of love right now, just love the one you’re with. In this crazy world of ours, it’s either you love them or you don’t. Remember always that we are like cobwebs; all interconnected. The world is too small that one can never shove away the truth.

I don’t have any regrets, because I know that all these would eventually make me stronger..in time. There are just some things, or people, that squeeze the hell out of you. I saluted the virtue of patience way too much that it led me to blindness. The signs have always been there, maybe I refused to pay much attention on them. I held on, I cried, yet I still believed.

So now I face the sea of truth.

One by one clues were distributed. For a person who’s not so fond of jigsaw puzzles, this is a tough time. Yet I have to be fair to myself; this time it’s about me, I deserve to unravel the mystery. It pains me a lot to think that it’s only now that I’ve awaken from a slumber that almost killed me.

I still believe in love. We may have to experience it the hard way at times, but I know it would still be the tie that binds us all together.

Right now, I could really use a forgiving heart from the heavens.

I got a lot of shakes in my life. Literally, my knees went wild with every heart-pounding moment, but I noticed that these are the moments that changed the course of things. These are the moments that define who I am right now.

November 14, 2003 - around 2 a.m.

So I was living alone, and thank God for angels who helped me get by with life. A special angel, who stood out among the rest, gave me another chance in love. He led me towards a second look at being taken good care of, and the best part was, he was the best friend who stood by me despite the odds. Things got clearer and more beautiful when he spoke the three loving words… that was also the time when I have loved myself more deeply by loving that good man as well. My knees shook as I returned those words, (this time coming from my heart), because I wouldn’t know what lies ahead of us, and I knew that it would be a start of something deeper, something greater. But I guess that’s the beauty of loving life and living love; you get to brace the challenges together. That was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. It started a wonderful experience that taught me a lot about real love, and about keeping the faith that one day, real love would stay.