What makes you stay -
At work, when boss gets moody, workmates all nosy, job becoming a drag?
When trust has been thrown away in exchange for a couple of stories so that one gets to belong?
When you know good things wouldn’t last?
When things start to change and the thrill of being together fades away?
When you fought for something and yet it’s still not enough?
When you know it’s time to let go and yet you can’t?
Carousels amaze me. For some, its just one of those carnival add-ons for a bit of camera-clicks. For kids, its heaven on earth. For me, well..they simply amaze me.
I am not fond of taking rides. They scare the hell out of me! Most of my friends get keyed up whenever I let myself be dragged towards the entrance of any theme park, but they know for one I am just there to take their pics, or another option, I’ll be the subject of those shots. .Ü So while they scream their souls out, I wander around, feeding my kiddie heart with a couple of giggles and a cotton candy in one hand.
Carousels never fail to make me stop in my tracks. I would stare at those lovely horses, all colored and shiny. Oh, and don’t forget the music..it just takes me to a different time. Its all so whimsical..
I had dinner with two of my best buds last Friday night. We caught up, for we havent seen each other for quite sometime now and as usual, it was a wonderful night. We discussed about a few rants and raves, here and there, who’s what and when’s where. I listened to them intensely then it dawned on me..we have definitely grown to be different individuals now. Yesterday, we worried about whether to hitch a ride or take the tryc outsyd the highschool grounds goin to the mall; now we worry about risking other options for progress! Our jobs, what path to take..they all seem to still be a mystery most of the time.Each day is a lesson, I know. At times we even learn the hard way. Again, what matters is the journey.
I believe we all have our own carousels in our lives. Its all up to us whether to take a ride on those beautiful horses while we let ourselves be taken away by the music, or let our own carousels be rusted up and just stare at others’ carousels while we envy the bright colors and the sweet, sweet melody they all bring. Those horses? They not only beautify but they bring so much joy, just like the people around us or the choices we’ve made as previously prayed for. All I’m saying is, let us not make those fancy ponies get rusty, love the one you’re with. It’s not everyday that we find someone who’ll wait for us patiently even it would mean forever, or someone who’ll cheer for us silently in each triumph, who’ll be willing to love us unrequitedly. learn to not take anybody for granted..it’s hard to look and hope for something, or someone, that is not there anymore.some things may be meant to be lost forever, we don’t hold the future. so seize each moment. love sincerely, love deeply.
The clock ticks swiftly,
As conversations drift by
I’m hating it so much
When the day rings the echoes of goodbye
I may not know when our spirits shall meet again.
For with you, tomorrow’s never certain.
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You still got me in a daze,
I could use some clues to this mystery
We always have a blast, yet the warmth doesn’t last
The start of a fantasy soon ending up already.
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Strings unattached, though everything’s worthwhile
Sparks danced with your every smile
And now that we’ve been acquainted with the truth,
I must not dwell on you…
No, I wouldn’t go that far again
For with you, tomorrow’s never certain.
== dvm 010706 - 2410h
chy,
a line turned into a poem..thanks for the inspiration.
Red and green, my world’s spinning
You got me in a daze
Wine was all that’s left
Straight it all up, to ease and help me forget.
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No, it’s nothing serious
Yet you keep me wondering
So puzzling, so mysterious
I went on, yet you got me thinking..
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What if we’re together now
Would I still be laughing
On all the things you’ve said
That kept me remembering?
Would I be gazing at those eyes
That charmed me so deeply
Would it, could it, should it…
Could it all lead to something?
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You got it all over
And that was a real gift
I’d love to know you more
If you’ll just give it a lift
On chances, on time
On something that could be sublime
I hope that you could see,
If you’d just let me..
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dvm122505-5am
A slice of daytime food for the soul as shared by my beloved Meredith:
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person who wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it gets harder every time. You break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your bestfriend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing so fast and you’ll even truly lose someone you love. So take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt before. Because every 60 sec. you spend upset is a minute of happiness you can’t get back. "
No point in dwelling with fear, sadness and despair, my friend. Life is too beautiful to be spent on people or things not worth thinking about. Feel the pain for a day but give a lifetime of happiness and value for yourself. Let live!
I kept the faith, but one has to know when to stop. God has created ways that made me unchain myself from a burden that could cripple me for a lifetime.
Life is too precious to be spent on lies and betrayals.
No one is perfect, that’s a given. But I believe that as long as you value respect and fairness, everything else follows. We walk along the paths of our destiny as human beings with feelings, not as tin cans that roam without sensitivity.
To those who are shedding the light of love right now, just love the one you’re with. In this crazy world of ours, it’s either you love them or you don’t. Remember always that we are like cobwebs; all interconnected. The world is too small that one can never shove away the truth.
I don’t have any regrets, because I know that all these would eventually make me stronger..in time. There are just some things, or people, that squeeze the hell out of you. I saluted the virtue of patience way too much that it led me to blindness. The signs have always been there, maybe I refused to pay much attention on them. I held on, I cried, yet I still believed.
So now I face the sea of truth.
One by one clues were distributed. For a person who’s not so fond of jigsaw puzzles, this is a tough time. Yet I have to be fair to myself; this time it’s about me, I deserve to unravel the mystery. It pains me a lot to think that it’s only now that I’ve awaken from a slumber that almost killed me.
I still believe in love. We may have to experience it the hard way at times, but I know it would still be the tie that binds us all together.
Right now, I could really use a forgiving heart from the heavens.
I got a lot of shakes in my life. Literally, my knees went wild with every heart-pounding moment, but I noticed that these are the moments that changed the course of things. These are the moments that define who I am right now.
November 14, 2003 - around 2 a.m.
So I was living alone, and thank God for angels who helped me get by with life. A special angel, who stood out among the rest, gave me another chance in love. He led me towards a second look at being taken good care of, and the best part was, he was the best friend who stood by me despite the odds. Things got clearer and more beautiful when he spoke the three loving words… that was also the time when I have loved myself more deeply by loving that good man as well. My knees shook as I returned those words, (this time coming from my heart), because I wouldn’t know what lies ahead of us, and I knew that it would be a start of something deeper, something greater. But I guess that’s the beauty of loving life and living love; you get to brace the challenges together. That was one of the most beautiful moments of my life. It started a wonderful experience that taught me a lot about real love, and about keeping the faith that one day, real love would stay.
